23 Aug

I'm getting better . I just don't know how to face him this thursday . I feel like changing my tuition time. My friends said i'm stupid , really stupid , why because of him i tried to run away from the world . Hide myself after from anyone . I just felt stupid too . Anyways , time will wash this away. Never hope for anything . In this life i'm not going to trust anyone who said that he loves me.

22 Aug

Nothing special about today , I din on my facebook , i just want to stay away from the world and people. I'm sick , having flu  the whole afternoon . i just want to get well . i dont want to get sick all the time . this shows that i'm not strong enough to take care of myself .

 Smile to the world LOVE .

20 Aug

So today , was FUN ! I din think of him , din even cross my mind . But i admit i still have feeling through wards him . But anyways , forget about it . I'll just leave the world and Enjoy myself .Two days , give me two days , I'll swear to god I'll move on and forget . LOL . So i went to my studio today , I had fun laughing wit my gangs . LOL. I always laugh like a manic ,even though it just a small joke , My friends do rock my day today . I went shopping today . i bought two beautiful dresses, which i adore . Hmmm, i just can't wait to wear them . Actually i wanted to get another top , but its just too far for me to walk there , by the time i reach there i'm like chocolate , dark and melt . LOL So then i forget about the shirt . LOL I'll get it someday . LOL then i stayed in my studio to practice my singing , My dance teacher said my singing skills improve alot . I'm like OMG , are you kidding me ? LOL .I sang , *my heart will go on * and some other song . It just brought back my mood. 4 something . its time to dance . I dance bottle pop , My teacher told me , i'm still lacking of something . I'm working on it teacher , Give me some time , I'll improve . :D .


So time passes . It was , 5 .30 . I took my teacher's place , i teached two small Lil cute girls to day a cute dance . HAHAH Just made my day . Like seriously. Its my first time teaching small kid to dance . They are way to adorable .then so i went home , my dad brought me to a restaurant . I had the most Delicious dishes ever. I had two big bowls of rice . HAHAH as you can see. i'm happy , I can eat so many :D . HAHAHAHAH then i went home . when i was walking back to my room i sang again for no reason. HAHA then my dad yell . Hey yo . up stairs , then singing thingy is getting better and better . HAHAHAH. I'm like are you serious dad ? Like SERIOUSLY ? HAHAHA. My dad use to step my by saying my singing is bad. I can;t sing , i don't have the singing talent . My dad is just awesome . HAHAHAH. Shouldn't had fall so happy , HAHAH i need to add oil and improve more . so i can follow my teachers to go for competitions HAHAHA. I looking forward to it . HAHAh I just can't wait :D.


Well i should seriously stop here . HHAHA. Bye world .Its an awesome day .

19 aug.

From the moment you started to run away from me . I already know. what are you thinkin . So yea , I'll move on . And i'm serious about it . So move on to .

Love you like a love song :D

It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now here's another one
So your melody will play on and on, with best of 'em
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical
You've saved my life again
And I want you to know baby

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Verse 2]
Constantly, boy you played through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me, what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hyptonized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful
You are...I want you to know baby
Selena Gomez Love You Like A Love Song lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/selena-gomez-love-you-like-a-love-song-lyrics.html



[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Bridge]
No one compares
You stand alone, to every record I own
Music to my hear that's what you are
A song that goes on and on

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

I love you...like a love song...

Bored .

So , its holiday. I planned to go out , but i end up staying at home. Its worst , My mood is not getting any better . Staying at home watching tv is not what i want . I want to go out , have fun and eat . When am i going to recover ? i'm asking every single one of my friends. I've never tot that i'll end up like this. This is the worst thing i've ever done . I shouldn;t had flirt back at the first place, even though i flirt back shouldn't had take it serious. Why am i always so stupid ? Always take things so serious . At the end who's the one who get hurt ?  Stupid my who get hurts all the time . Sky,Keivin,Kaze, Now you . When is this going to end ?

....

words can't express how my heart felt , all you can see is lil pieces on the floor , and tears rolling down to my face . You can't do anything , cause the heart is already hurt .  Just stand there and watch .

So yea , I'm kind of unhappy , HAHAH . But still I'm laughing . No matter how sad am i or how hard it is. , I can still manage to smile . I smile to the whole world  . This few days its going to be an hectic day . Training , perform , video recording . Puff,  All i need now is just a hug , form anyone . I don't care who are you , just give me a hug , Stressful . days like this is actually good . I keep myself busy just to stay away from the world and people . I'll always think of stupid stuff when i'm alone . I like to be alone , but not in the thinking stuff wayy. Makes me even more stressful and painful . I can't trust love , i tried so hard but at last it still breaks my heart . My heart couldn't handle too much pain . I choose not to trust . Until i meet a guy who's trutly worth the trust ....

Best thing i ever had .

BEST THING I EVER HAD ! I was listening to this song right now , and it reminds me of someone , A guy . Lee Keivin . This song makes me think of what you did to me . I will never ever forget . I decided to dedicate this song to you . Read the lyric , this is how your attitude acts .

7 aug

So where have i been . Lately , I'm kinda busy , i went for an over night at my friends place . Its kinda far from my house . I din get the time to blog . and sometimes , I still feel to keep things in my heart , I had the kind of bad habit , I always wanted to change it but still i failed . I registered this blog is to express my feeling , Maybe it's my personal problem . all i want to say now is . I just want to Have chocolate cake . I just want to eat  Chocolate cake .

3 Aug

Nothing much to talk about .....

2 Aug

Fuck yea, I just quarrel wit my mom. I feel tired talking to her. every time we talk we end up quarreling . I don't even feel like talking to her anymore. I can't just keep myself quiet and sit there letting her scold . This is so not me .I'll fight and quarrel back . I don't get scolding for no reason . Everything happens for a reason . You should tell me where did i did wrong not just scold me for no reason .